naval ring piercing
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. Sunday, May 17, 2009
Looking away from you,just not to be in love with you agn.  i really don't know wht i want now at this moment. i'am lost,lost inside a deep deep forest. nobody ever knows wht's inside my heart and how sad i am. thou i may be seen laughing and smiling,it dosen't means tht i'm happy. maybe i'm happy but its all just for the few second,and after a few min i'm bcked to the old me. small things around me remind me bck to the past be it a good or bad moment but those moments tht we've once shared are kept inside deep down my heart and never to be bygone away.it's those memories tht i shall keep it tightly and vividly and never to let go or be bygoned. i know by doing all this i'am gonna cause more hurt to myself. you may say tht i'm naive and stupid. but isn't love to be in this way? during all this time i've been telling myself to let go of you and start afresh but every tiny bit of things around me reminds of you. and if things is going to be going this way,how am i going to let you go and be erased off my mind? i'am just torturing myself all this while. crying myself to sleep,thinking hard of every single way to see if you're doing fine looking at those photos of yours etc. i really missed&luved you alotalotalot,but you're always doing things to hurt against me so hard tht i sometimes really have had no ideas of why for wht reaons to carry on living in this world tht causes me so much hurts and tears. i bet you still know tht i luv you,but i doubt you now know tht i luv you more thn the past. have you ever loved me bfore was the ques i always asked myself,i don't even dare to think of asking you as i'am afarid for wht you tell me is going to be a piece of white lie. i really wants to get myself drunk so tht so to forget everythings bout us in the past. but it's just for tht v.moment when i'am drunk and after i'am awake everythings bout us is still gonna be within me. it 3.02am right now. surprise to see me blogging at this time? i'm meeting kx for breakfast tml and i'am still awake! i just can't get to sleep,thou i'am tired. i'm really not in the right mood to sleep now,pissed&sad. how can i sleep when i'm pissed&sad,anyone care to tell me? i need someone to entertain me so tht i can go high and go guliguli gaga thn off to my lala land. but i doubt anyone would be so free/bother to entertain me. my mind is full of youyouyou! how can i sleep!i'amgoing mad really mad! you still choose her afterall. thou you know you know wht you're doing is not going to come true,but you still wants to go on with whts in your mind. how i wish tht you'll be mine and only and i know its impossible. but i still wish for tht. if i'm not going to get my sleep now i doubt i can make it for breakfast with kx tml. so can anyone blow me into my lala land to get my sleep? Labels: maybe i shoudn't have think so much bout the past. in my hour of weakness,
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 PeiYing,sweet 6'teen. judge & be judged.
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naval ring piercing inked at the back Bold
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